Sakit!?

Sekarang ni aku rasa macam nak demam (macam, bukannya dah). Tekak dah mula sakit. Lepas tu, batuk-batuk sampai sakit paru-paru aku. Kepala dah rasa tak berapa nak betul dan berdenyut-denyut bak irama k-pop. Mood pulak MEMANG TAK BAIK. Ada saja benda yang tak kena menyebabkan kesabaran aku (yang sememangnya tak berapa nak tebal dan kukuh sangat) teruji. Mata rasa berat yang teramat nak bukak. Lagi satu, aku lenguh dan sengal satu badan, lebih-lebih lagi kat kawasan tulang belakang aku.

Bila aku dah sakit ni, satu perkara yang paling aku tak suka sangat (nak stress kat situ betapa aku tak suka sampai tatabahasa pun salah, tahu yang mana?). Perkara yang paling aku tak suka ialah bila orang mengacau aku. Kacau yang macam mana? Semua jenis kacau! Tapi yang paling aku menyampah sekali ialah bila orang ajak bercakap atau tanya aku sesuatu. Satu gejala yang aku hidapi bila aku tengah sakit ialah AKU TAK NAK BERSUARA. Bermakna aku memang 100% senyap.

Jadi, bila aku tengah sakit, kalau orang bercakap atau tanya aku sesuatu, apa aku buat? Aku buat bodoh sajalah! Aku memang malas sangat nak layan orang bila aku sakit ni. Aku kalau sakit, bukan sakit pada fizikal saja, bahkan segalanya pun aku sakit termasuklah sakit jiwa dan sakit mental (memang parah betullah aku ni).

Lepas tu, satu benda lagi yang aku buat bila aku sakit, aku 'menjeling' kat orang. Aku ada cakap tadi, eh, taip tadi kat atas yang mata aku rasa macam nak tertutup. Jadi, aku punya mata cuma terbuka dengan keluasan yang amat minimum, ini membuatkan apabila aku pandang orang, macam aku tengah menjeling. Tak cukup dengan jeling tu lagi, ditambah dengan muka aku yang masam mencuka sebab mood aku yang jahanam ni (aku tengok orang macam nak gaduh pulak).

Tuntasnya, janganlah berada dalam kawasan perimeter sekeliling aku bila aku tengah sakit ni. Sebabnya, akhir sekali engkau pulak yang sakit hati (rasa macam nak tumbuk muka aku pulak nanti).

Salam blogger ^__^

Microsoft Access

Now, it’s official! I hate Access and Access hates me. I just can’t seem to get how the damn thing worked. Well, I do know how to insert the data and that’s it! And that doesn't even count as mastering the basics of Access because even a child can do it. I've tried several times to learn the tutorial or seek help from the application’s help wizard itself but after several minutes into it, my mind start to blur as my vision goes hazy.

I really am so bad in this. It’s like immediately after opening Access with the spirit to accomplish and achieved success in mastering the basics (at least), my soul was almost sucked into the computer to a realm unknown to man. This got me pretty frustrated as I don’t like the idea that I’m somewhat incapable of conquering it.

But it’s actually crucial that I know the way of using it being the reason that I have to do a PRESENTATION about it. And to make it worse, the presentation is next week, ladies and gentlemen. Just thinking about it made me lose my appetite. Therefore, it’s better if I don’t think about it. NO! I have to! The presentation is next week (wailing). Dear God, give me strength.

One more thing, Sir Azzwan, please be kind to me during the fateful judgment day. I’m trying and still learning.

A blogger regards ^__^

Sakit kepala

Kalau aku tak terangkan pun, orang yang baca tajuk post di atas tu boleh tahu isi yang aku nak tulis dalam selebih post ni. Jadi, aku SAKIT KEPALA (tak nak letak tanda seru sebab nanti bertambah sakit kepala aku, konon!).

Sebab aku sakit kepala? Eh, banyak sebabnya dan sebab-sebab tu bukannya remeh temeh. Antaranya:

1. Program - Aku libatkan diri dalam program English Zone (kolej) serta Pesta Konvokesyen UKM ke-40 (pusat) dan kedua-dua progam ni berlangsung pada hari yang sama, tempoh yang sama dan tamat pada hari yang sama. Kedua-dua program ni pulak memerlukan komitmen yang sangat tinggi dari ahli-ahlinya yang menyebabkan kalau aku pergi program English Zone aku kena korbankan program Pesta Konvokesyen dan begitu juga sebaliknya. Disebabkan kerumitan ni, bermulalah kepala aku berserabut memikirkan aku ni dah terjerumus dalam lubang gelap jenis apa (padahal aku sendiri yang sengaja cari nahas libatkan diri dengan dua program pada satu-satu masa tapi aku tak tahu pun masa awal-awal mendaftar dulu).
2. Tidur - Macam yang aku tulis kat atas, aku ni melibatkan diri dengan program yang boleh membantu aku menambahkan jam kredit, maka komitmen yang perlu aku berikan adalah sepenuhnya sebagai ahli yang terlibat secara langsung dalam menjayakan program berkenaan. Bila hari program semakin hampir, waktu tidur aku pula semakin luput. Ini bermakna, aku kekurangan tidur yang optimum (tu tak campur lagi waktu tidur lebihan yang aku lepaskan).
3. Internet - Pasal yang ni tak perlulah aku jelaskan panjang-panjang sebab aku dah tulis satu post pun menceritakan pasal benda alah ni (malas nak ulang banyak kali sebab buat aku bertambah sakit otak).
4. Kuiz - Sebelum aku mula menaip untuk post ni, aku baru siapkan dua kuiz akaun. Inilah faktor utama yang membuatkan kepala aku makin berdenyut-denyut. Aku duduk termenung menghadap komputer riba aku dua jam lima belas minit secara berterusan sebab nak siapkan kuiz tu punya pasal. Tarikh akhir kedua-dua kuiz tu malam ni, jadi hendak atau tidak aku kena buat malam ni jugak (aku bukannya nak sangat buat kerja saat-saat akhir tapi menyiapkan kuiz tu menggunakan internet, jadi kena tunggu aku balik baru boleh siapkan dan sebab aku balik baru nak buat tu perlu ke aku terangkan lagi?).

Di atas merupakan antara penyebab dan punca aku mendapat sakit kepala. Aku bukannya menyalahkan orang lain atau meletakkan kesalahan tu pada sebab-sebab yang aku nyatakan. Sebab semua yang berlaku itu terjadi adalah kerana itulah rantaian atau suratan takdir (cewah! nak bermadah pulak aku malam-malam ni). Apa yang kita lakukan pada masa lampau akan memberi kesan pada apa yang bakal terjadi di masa hadapan. Macam itulah yang berlaku pada aku sekarang. Disebabkan keputusan aku nak lakukan sesuatu di masa lepas membuatkan aku sakit kepala di masa kini.

Aku berhenti setakat ini dahulu. Bunyi aku menaip keletak-keletuk macam seiring dengan denyutan sakit kepala aku ni. Makin menjadi-jadi pulak nanti. Hanya satu sahaja yang aku harapkan iaitu supaya sakit kepala aku tidaklah melarat menjadi lebih parah serta segeralah ia sembuh. Penyelesaian aku untuk sakit kepala ni? (oh tidak! bukan makan ubat) Makan McDonald dan diikuti dengan tidur yang nyenyak. Sekian.

Salam blogger ^__^

Connection D=

This is my story with 'connection'. What is this connection you may ask. Well, you have to read the rest of this story to find out what has happen between me and connection in the past and during present time (just a reminder that it's not a love story).

Thus, the story begins. I got my current laptop during my matriculation year on the first semester in the midst of year 2011 (which means my laptop is over a year old now). I really cherished this laptop as it is my first and also it's a gift from my dad and even though it's a gift, I got to pick which laptop I want for myself (yay, lucky!). To me, it's perfect when I received it and tested it out for the first time. Then, when I bring it to my college (I'm a graduate from Perlis Matriculation College), it turned out that this laptop can't connect with the wi-fi provided for free by the college administration.

The solution at that time was, to buy me a broadband service (I'm at a bliss), simple as that. The broadband provided me with a high speed internet connection that I can't get using the college's wi-fi. There's nothing to complain about (except a few times when it refuse to serve me and I get seriously mad). I practically used it all the time for personal and academic use as it is small in size which made it easy to carry around.

The broadband has served me all year round (I'm grateful to it and also to my dad for paying the bill) and when it's about time that I went to UKM for the registration day, something ominous occurred to me (not exactly). It went like this.  When I was handing the dirty laundry to my mom as she was asking if I had any to be washed (she always did it for me and that's one of the many reasons why I love her so much), I would never imagined that it could cost me my treasured broadband.

It never occurred for me to check if I had anything that I left in my clothes as it would be customary for mom to do it instead. But somehow that day, it slipped her mind to check through my clothes before washing it. To my mom's surprise, there's my broadband modem in the pocket of one of my clothes and it was washed together with the laundry. As my mom took out the broadband modem from the cloth, the water was dripping all over from it.

The broadband modem was soaked in the water mixed with detergent (that actually made it smells really nice but that didn't delight me at all). When my mom told me about it, I completely fell into a state of silent (probably because I don't know how to react or I was just too shocked). My mom apologized to me immediately but I didn't respond to her as if I was angry and blaming her for the incident. I took the modem and dried it right away using various ways I could think of that time (I even open the modem casing to dry the inside).

Then, when I tested the broadband on my laptop to see if it's still working, and it only just confirmed my worst thought. The modem can't even be detected in my laptop and I just frowned at my laptop like all hope is lost (but I didn't cry). While staring blankly, my mind went into deep thought. All of this happened without anyone intending it to turn out this way and it's an accident, I thought to myself. I shouldn't have made it as if it was my mom's fault (I regret thinking that way and felt sorry towards her). If anyone is to be blame for this, that would be me for being careless.

After that, my dad was informed of the incident and I thought he's going to reprimand me because of what happened. However, the exact opposite happened and he even replaced the non-functioning broadband modem with a brand new one (well, my mom paid for it because she still felt bad for causing it). So, all is well and no one got hurt.

The only thing that's off at that time was I didn't test the new broadband modem as I was busy preparing for my registration day at UKM (there's only one day left!). And when I eventually tested it out (I was already at UKM for more than a week), the broadband performed horribly. The signal was low (and sometimes can't even be detected) and when I did get connected, the internet speed was so slow that it made me fed up until I decided to just gave up from continuing to use it.

To make matters worse, my laptop can't seem to be wi-fi friendly at UKM either. All of these that is happening just pissed me off (yeah, I said it). Because of that, I'm facing several problems when it comes to things that need to be done using no other way but through the internet and that sucks (I said it again). For example, accessing UKM's i-folio, completing assignments, getting hold of information via Facebook, emails, and etc. And to make the point across, even updating this blog is being hindered because of the internet connection problem.

Sometimes, when I'm fired up to do something such as updating this blog so to say, all that motivation went down the drain because I can't connect to the internet. Even though I had two ways of connecting to the internet, both of them are just seemingly useless. Well, I do get connected a few times but then the connection was cut off when I'm in the middle of an important internet session (I was even answering an online quiz at one time and that had to happen). That just made me much more pissed off (said it yet again) than I already do.

Therefore, I had to go back home every weekend to enjoy unlimited, unhindered, fast high speed internet without any problem whatsoever (that's not the entire reason I went home). By the way, I used unifi internet service back home and let me tell you it's really fast (well, it's still can't compared to other west countries but it'll make do for me). That's why I'm accustomed to fast internet connection and starts whining when it's slow.

Looking back, I've already been going on for quite long (I never imagined it'd be this long). That tends to happen quite often when I'm unsatisfied with something that I can't be patient with anymore. It's not that I'm impatient or anything but all these are just too infuriating for me to just keep quiet. Do forgive me for my offensive language (if you find it offensive at all) but that's me when I'm whining or complaining.

Now you know the story of me and 'connection' which is the internet. I know everyone has encountered a similar setback but since this is my blog, I can write whatever that I want. Be it the most ridiculous thing or the most brilliant thing. It's my decision and solely mine alone. And it'll be that way forever.

A blogger regards ^__^